Kick Me When I’m Down?

Zechariah 3

I must be a very lousy person who has nothing good in life by which to identify myself with. If I start thinking of some worthwhile things that I’ve accomplished, then a thought arises to humiliate and excruciate me. I’m reminded of how I’ve failed miserably in my interactions with others, and I don’t deserve inclusion in any type of social activities. I can’t even ride my bicycle to the store without checking, double checking, and rechecking for traffic; there is almost always a reason that I have to avoid a car that is heading towards me. Safety concerns flood my mind. Those thoughts always remind me of how my health is about ready to fail, and doctors probably won’t be much help. Even then, there is something in my feelings, in my emotions, in my spirit that comforts me and gives me peace with a dose of happiness.

“Then he showed me Joshua the high priest standing before the angel of the Lord,
and Satan standing at his right side to accuse him. 
The Lord said to Satan, “The Lord rebuke you, Satan! The Lord, who has chosen Jerusalem, rebuke you!
Is not this man a burning stick snatched from the fire?”
Zechariah 3:1-2

My shortcomings are still burning in my memories even after being snatched from the fire. Even though those intrusive thoughts cause me to remember the worst things about myself, they cannot cause God to remember the worst things about me.

“You will again have compassion on us; you will tread our sins underfoot
and hurl all our iniquities into the depths of the sea.”
Micah 7:19

Whatever we feel and whatever it is that we think, Jesus gave us reassurance, “For God so loved the world, that he gave his only begotten Son, that whosoever believeth in him should not perish, but have everlasting life.” John 3:16